I’ve dealt with loss in my life – all 4 of my grandparents, my childhood home, friendships. And when I lost Jim the first time – true love.
But through all of those losses, the rest of my world remained unchanged. I still had my family, friends, the career I love. My future as I envisioned it.
That all changed after I lost Jim the second and final time. Because this time,
I also lost my entire future. Yes, my family and friends stood by me, but my career no longer mattered to me. I’m just being honest.
There’s loss, and then there’s complete and utter loss. I had absolutely no idea what was next. Nothing mattered. I was simply surviving.
That’s how it is when you lose it all in a single moment. A blink. An instant. I just went through the motions, surviving without really knowing why. Getting through one event and surviving until the next one. Recovering and doing it again.