I don’t even know what it means…
It doesn’t mean it hurts any less. Quite the opposite. I miss you even more.
It doesn’t mean I understand it any better. I still reach for you before I’m fully awake. Every Single Morning.
Which means that I’m sleeping, something I didn’t do much of the first couple of years.
I measure progress in my own terms. My steps might seem small to others but they’re enormous without you here.
I know so many relate to this… but I don’t know if you realize how amazing you are. I didn’t. I’m just figuring it out, and I want to share some of the most important lessons I’ve learned with you:
You have more control over your world than you realize. You are in charge of who and what you let into your world. Living intentionally gives you this power, the power to mold your life into whatever you want it to be. No matter what age you are, or what stage of life you are in, you can create your own universe and create your own tribe.
“You can have people around you that lift you up and make you feel good, you don’t have to put up with the people and things that bring you down.”
When I was so focused on the plan and figuring out “what’s next?” I didn’t see the beauty in not knowing! I know for the planners out there this is a strange concept. It was strange for me, too – I get it! But I’m so glad I learned to find the balance because I was missing out and I don’t want you to miss anything.
You miss SO many beautiful things along the way. You miss the signs, you miss the miracles that are guiding you toward unknown paths on your journey! You miss the experience – completely.
“You will figure it out when It’s meant for you to figure it out. I invite you to think about what that means for you.”
Let go of logic. Let go of intellect. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve known someone – the only thing that matters is how they make you feel. Whether you can explain it or whether it doesn’t make sense logically, there is no right or wrong.
“I have learned to get out of the intellect and into the emotion and see that as a strength.”
We’re so hard on ourselves. We judge ourselves more than we judge anyone else, and it’s damaging and dangerous to who we can be. We all need to start living life on our terms, without comparing ourselves to other people or worrying what other people think. My greatest lesson in the past four years is that I am a badass. I can get through anything, I can figure it out, and I am tougher than I ever knew.
“I just want you to know that if you are in a difficult place, YOU are a badass. You’re here and you’re getting through it and it doesn’t have to make sense and you don’t have to believe it right now, but trust me you are.”
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You all are such a big part of my journey and I wouldn’t be here without you. So thank you for always supporting me. I wish everybody the happiest and healthiest new year. . I would love to hear your celebrations! Send them my way: Sam@samantharuth.com.
In the meantime, Always Be Ruthless!